“The most authentic thing about us is our capacity to create, to overcome, to endure, to transform, to love and to be greater than our suffering.”
Friends, I’m distracted.
And I’m sorry.
Life dramatically shifted for me this week. I have things going on that demand my attention, and I fear that I don’t have much to give here right now. I may feel this way for a mere few days. Or maybe a week. Maybe longer. I just don’t know.
I wish I could wake up tomorrow to a completely different world, with a solution to my every challenge, so I can quickly get back to the business of being me.
When I can be myself, words flow from my heart effortlessly, and I simply can’t wait to share them here. And that’s the problem. I’m not myself. The words aren’t coming. I need to work through some big things first, so I can feel that beauty and wisdom in my heart again. When I started getting sick many years ago, and the news from my doctor wasn’t getting better, acceptance went a long way in my healing process and putting me on this path to realizing my dreams. For the first time in what felt like forever, everything was possible. But this week, with every test and doctor’s appointment, I feel my acceptance slipping away. The possible is suddenly feeling impossible.
I know this is a temporary setback; and once I get some decisions made I will be on my way to feeling truly empowered again. But now all I can do, today, is move forward simply and easily, and take the small but significant step of focusing on what is good:
A man whose love for me knows no end, no matter what comes our way.
A safe place to call home.
My fur-suit-wearing angel babies.
Through all of this, I am indeed a humble, thankful recipient.
A recipient of abundant grace.
I thank all of you for your continued support.
May we all look forward knowing how blessed we truly are.
Have a beautiful weekend.
I’ll be back soon.