Happy Monday, friends. I hope your weekend treated you well. I enjoyed the company of a dear and longtime friend on Friday night. We enjoyed some coffee and Christmas lights, and honestly it had been way too long since I had seen her (I need to focus more on my friendships, but that is a topic for another day).
After that I really needed a slower pace. It has been cold and dreary, so it felt right to stay home and just do some Christmas-y stuff around the house, like wrapping and cookies and other things that make me feel all warm inside. I needed to feel quiet and peace in my soul. The school tragedy that unfolded on Friday left me reeling and sad, and I feel the need to seriously get back to the things that matter most. It is always my goal, to get back to those things, and I’ve been pretty good at remembering to do so. It doesn’t take a national tragedy. But what happened did inspire me to feel that extra love in my heart; to look at my family and friends with an added devotion. I don’t want to deter from that, because it is exactly what the world needs right now. More love.
Anyway, on a completely different note, this post is feeling kind of random to me. While I have a ton of ideas in my head, they just don’t seem right to talk about now. That and I feel like I can’t string one decent sentence together. At least a sentence that actually sounds like me. I hate feeling so directionless. Maybe I’m distracted, because I continue to fight the fear that what I’m doing isn’t enough. It isn’t just about the holidays either. It’s about every aspect of my life. I feel like each day is just flowing into the next and I’m not reaching goals the way I want to. I really need to start 2013 with an intense focus on my health so I can have the energy to do everything I need and want to do. But that is really a conversation for another day. It has just been on my mind so I guess I really needed to say it.
Anyway, back to happy things. Today I crave beauty and comfort and love. My Christmas tree is looking rather gorgeous. And I really like the way my cozy grey sweatshirt feels against my skin. The pups are here as usual, ready to give me some “sugar.” Now that I’m thinking about it, I’ve got everything I need and want right here.
It will be a good day.
I wish everyone a beautiful week.
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